The Point of No Return - 38 Weeks
I'm offically on maternity leave. Yesterday I attended my graduation, enormous belly intact. I feel like I can breath a huge sigh of relief, cause believe me, you haven't lived until you've taken finals in your 38th week of pregnancy. Nothing quite like throwing up, then putting the final touches on a ten page paper on border patrol, then taking a final on modern philosophy. Yep. But it's hard to be very discouraged since it's all over with. I was, however, I think so stressed about being sick the day of my graduation that I actually made myself sick. Luckily I got that all over with early on, and I was feeling like myself again in time to walk. In theory, I should be able to relax now and will stop throwing up, but I'm staying on the safe side and avoiding dairy altogether anyway.
So, now there's nothing to do but wait I guess. The house is clean and organized, the kids' room is just like I envisioned, I love it, and we even have the bassinet in our room. I took a walk while Emily rode her bike this evening - anything to get things moving along - but maybe I spent so much time worrying about this little guy coming early that he's probably going to just stay in there to spite me.
I can't believe I'm finally at the end of this pregnancy. It's both flown by and dragged on at the same time. I've certainly done my share of complaining, but in hindsight I guess I've had it pretty good. The utter exhaustion, the acid reflux, the vomiting, it's all been put in perspective now - and really it's much worse for many more people.
I keep trying to imagine what it will be like to not be pregnant anymore, and I really can't. In my head sometimes I have a hard time envisioning that this will actually end, and soon. I forget that one way or another the baby is getting out of there this month.
But I guess at this point I'll just keep waiting. My heart races everytime I wake up with a contraction in the middle of the night, or I start to have lower back pain. It's so exciting to think that at any second, things will be put into motion that will alter our lives forever. I know he'll come when he's ready, but it's so hard to wait because I'm so ready for him!
So, now there's nothing to do but wait I guess. The house is clean and organized, the kids' room is just like I envisioned, I love it, and we even have the bassinet in our room. I took a walk while Emily rode her bike this evening - anything to get things moving along - but maybe I spent so much time worrying about this little guy coming early that he's probably going to just stay in there to spite me.
I can't believe I'm finally at the end of this pregnancy. It's both flown by and dragged on at the same time. I've certainly done my share of complaining, but in hindsight I guess I've had it pretty good. The utter exhaustion, the acid reflux, the vomiting, it's all been put in perspective now - and really it's much worse for many more people.
I keep trying to imagine what it will be like to not be pregnant anymore, and I really can't. In my head sometimes I have a hard time envisioning that this will actually end, and soon. I forget that one way or another the baby is getting out of there this month.
But I guess at this point I'll just keep waiting. My heart races everytime I wake up with a contraction in the middle of the night, or I start to have lower back pain. It's so exciting to think that at any second, things will be put into motion that will alter our lives forever. I know he'll come when he's ready, but it's so hard to wait because I'm so ready for him!
posted by Kate at 9:16 PM
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